'I Don't Know Jack'. Live Shows, Here I Come! Week 5

Dear Diary,

Here's my offering to you this week.......

*  Update on CD workshop.

I signed up for Ani Avetyan's.  She's a casting associate with Bruce Newberg Casting.  Bruce Newberg has one too but, schedule conflict.  

Either way, done.  She likes to do cold reads so I don't have to prepare anything.  I like cold reads.

Now on to the main attraction......

I was sitting on my balcony doing some writing and saw my neighbor's kid (let's call him Jack), riding his bicycle.  Jack was yelling, "I want a motorcycle!" as he was riding up and down the block.  Every time he made it to one end of the block, he would have to stop to change directions.  And every time he would change directions, he would put more torque into the takeoff.  

I imagined him saying, "This is bullshit.  This isn't a real motorcycle." and throwing his bike down and walking away from it.  But, he didn't.  He pretended and believed it was his motorcycle.  And he was having a hell of a time.

I wonder if these thoughts happened to cross his mind.....

"My parents don't love me.  Because if they loved me, they would have gotten me a real motorcycle."

"What's the point of riding this bicycle?  This isn't a motorcycle and I feel like I'm settling."

"Will I ever get a motorcycle?"

"While everyone's riding their motorcycle, I'm just gonna be riding this slow-ass bicycle for the rest of my life."

"I'll never find the perfect motorcycle for me."

"I'll never make enough money to buy a motorcycle."

"What if I get married and have kids too soon and I won't have enough time or money for a motorcycle?"

"I'm being punished by owning this bicycle."

"What if I fall off and hurt myself?  What if I become handicapped because I wasn't careful?"

Can you imagine what would happen to Jack if these thoughts were alive in him?  Now, I don't know Jack but, I suppose he would stop riding.  He wouldn't have the time or energy to ride.  He would be too busy trying to figure out answers....the WHY's, the HOW's, the WHEN's, he would be too busy fighting with his parents, he would be too busy crying, he would be too busy screaming, he would be too busy worrying about his future spouse and kids, he would be too busy sleeping because he's depressed, he would be too busy self-medicating because the truth hurts, he would be too busy being a slave to his thoughts.  Ok, I don't for sure if he'd being doing all these things since he's only 6 or 7....like I said, I don't know Jack.  

But what I do know, I know I can easily get debilitated by my thoughts.  Thoughts are one thing.....believing in them is another.  The only difference between Jack and I is that I believe in my fearful thoughts.  

All fearful thoughts take you away from NOW. 

All fearful thoughts take away possibilities from the future.

 

Good news is, all fearful thoughts are just thoughts.  Just like "I think I can be the next Evil Knievel".  Jack probably believes this thought over the thoughts mentioned above.  

You have a choice.  You always have a choice.  Which thought will you believe?

So, my mantra/affirmation for the week.

I deserve to live a life of health and well being.  I effortlessly take action on behalf of my Soul's desires.

What's yours??

I hope Jack keeps riding his bicycle and gets his motorcycle one day.  I hope you get yours too.  :)

A lil something I wrote...

I realized something.

I.  Don't.  Know.  SH*T.

Life just became a little easier to live.  

I'm fine with not knowing anything.  

I'm fine with not expecting a single thing.

It's freeing.  

And if it's some thing,

I'm meant to know, I'll know.  

In its time.  

Not mine.

Maybe I'll never know.  

Maybe I already know.

But, I did realize something.

I.  Don't.  Know.  SH*T.

Have a prosperous week....however that looks to you.  :)

with LOVE, as always,

Alex