Dear Diary,
Here's my offering to you this week.....
* I added a new blog to My Blog List. =====> Look to right sidebar.
Let's welcome Script Doctor Eric!
Who needs help writing scripts??? Be sure to check out his blog and site. Also, remember when he and TV Wet Nurse Matt invited me to be a guest on their radio show, Scriptcast? No?? Whaaaaat....check this. For the actual interview in full length, you can download it for free on iTunes. Click Here to download interview. I am episode #54.
* New Goals for 2013
Top priority for this year......writing and performing my own stuff. I want to do 5 spoken word shows and 5 stand-up shows. That's almost one show a month! I don't know if that's being lazy or over zealous. Who cares. It feels good to me. Then, I want to book some tv shows. Co-stars or guest-stars. I want residual checks, damn it! Lots and lots of them so I don't have to worry about money and just work on creating what I want. Financial freedom for 2013!
Now on to the main attraction....
My genius, my daimon, wants me to try something. Work with me on this, Dear Diary. The last couple months, my entries have been sporadic. I'm sorry. Whatever the reasons or excuses, I'm ready to be consistent with you again. However, under one condition.....I won't be spending as much time with you.
Last year, I published you every Mondays. I would start a post on a Friday/Saturday and work on it all damn weekend. Do I really need all damn weekend to write one post? Hell no. So I'd like to change that this year. I'd like to work on you Mondays ONLY and publish you on Tuesdays. I want to be more efficient with my time.
This doesn't mean I'm any less committed to you....if anything, I'm making more of a commitment because I'm completely present with you for the time we are allotted. When I have all damn weekend with you, I don't fully devote myself to you. I do some half ass writing here, half ass writing there, and then I get up early Monday morning and bang it out under pressure. And because of the pressure, I would feel like I'm fighting you and then I would resent you for making me feel like a bad writer, blogger, actor, artist, entrepreneur, etc. This has been my process...this has been my pattern.
I no longer want to feel like a slave to my art. I no longer want to wait for inspiration to strike to work. The perfectionist in me doesn't want to begin until I have the perfect thing to start with. The perfectionist in me doesn't want to finish until I have the perfect thing to end with. Waiting......waiting for inspiration, waiting for something better, waiting for approval. Waiting and procrastinating can kill an artist. This isn't the kind of writer I want to be. This isn't the kind of artist I want to be. This isn't the kind of human being I want to be.
What kind of writer, artist, and human being do I want to be? Well, definitely an alive one. Then a free one. A self-empowered one. A self-aware one. A happy one. A peaceful one. A disciplined one. A committed but not so serious one. A giving one. A happy to receive as well one. A courageous one. A funny one. A laughing one. A provocative one. A badass one. I think I'm already all of these. ;)
As a professional, I'm giving myself some credit. I don't need all damn weekend to write a post. I just need a day....maybe I'll get so good that I will eventually only need a couple hours. I want to be able to give myself to my other writings more. I want to do more spoken word shows. I want to do stand-up. I want to write my own shorts and features. That's just what I want to do. And I'm figuring out ways to make that work.
So, Dear Diary, I'm changing up our dynamic a bit. I think it's for the better. Who knows....maybe I'll only get to write one word next week, one line, or go off on a tangent......who the heck knows but, I want to try and see how it goes. Thank you for understanding and thank you for listening and loving me unconditionally.
If you can't fail, what would YOU try??
Have a wonderful week peeps.
with LOVE,
Alex
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