"I'm In The Zone....The Danger Zone." Television, Here I Come....Again! Week 27-29.

Mark Mazzanti Photography

Hair and MUA:  Galaxy San Juan

Dear Diary,

Here's my offering to you this week....

*  Hi guys!  As I'm building content for my personal website, I'm thinking of cool new ways to interact with you more and have some fun while we're all 'doing the work' together.  If you're on any of the social media platforms you see to your left, 'Friend', 'Follow', 'Add' me!  

*  I'm collecting testimonials/comments from my blog readers for my site!  If you have something nice to say about this blog, please do so!  I'll add it to my site.  :D  And all you need to include is your first name, last name is optional, and City/State.  Thank you!

*  I will be in Texas for two weeks!  Leaving next week and will be there til early August.  I'm going for work and play.  First week I'll be seeing my best friend Cammy Kinney and shooting with her, then the week after I'll be with my sister for her birthday.  So excited!  Cammy already has scouted locations, my sister has also got cool things planned.  I'll be posting pics on Instagram and Facebook, for sure.  :D

Now on to the main attraction.....

Here's what happens when you create......YOU GET IN THE ZONE, and sometimes, that zone is NOT pretty.  

I'm in the zone....the danger zone.

Here's my danger zone....I start something, I get about 1/2 - 3/4 of the way through and then, I stop.  I move away from it because something else seems more 'urgent' all of a sudden, I get bored with it, it all seems like complete crap now, things aren't clicking easily, maybe I'm not suppose to finish this after all, I get nasty with people, I become a hermit, I go into a shell, I become slightly manic, blah blah blah...you know how it is.

My danger zone used to be actually the starting point.  I pushed through that and now I've plateau-ed here...the 'halfway' or 'almost' done mark.  I got so used to thinking that my danger zone was the beginning, and because starting is easy for me now, I thought, "I'm in the clear."

Wrong.  New danger zone.  I have a new breakthrough waiting for me.  This is how it is before a breakthrough....I know this shit already....I've been through this before....I've felt this feeling before.  THIS IS GROWTH.  PUSH THROUGH TO THE NEXT LEVEL.  I believe this awareness came to me because I'm ready now.  

Thank God for the awareness now at least.  I can figure out how to tackle this now.  The artist in me is still creating but, the business person, the professional in me is the one seeing it through.  

I'm juggling quite a few things at the moment...all stuff on the creating side.

*  Working on my personal website.....figuring out what my 'voice', 'style', 'brand' is and trying to incorporate that, then actually building content around that I feel good about.

*  Part of a writing/producing trio.

*  Flying to Texas to do a photoshoot with my best friend, photographer extraordinaire, Cammy Kinney next week!  It's for my new website and another project I'm finally executing.

*  Revamping and reinventing  my blog...since I'll have my own personal website, I'll probably transfer it over there so that everything's in one place.  

Writing that out....damn, I AM stepping it up.  I should give myself some credit.  It's a process, and I'm in it so the payoff of feeling that satisfaction isn't there YET but, I'm looking forward to that feeling afterwards.  I guess in essence, this whole post is really about focusing on the feeling after, not the feeling of going through it...then, why wouldn't you pull yourself out of it?  There's gonna be some pain in doing the work.  That's reality.  You're gonna be confronted with yourself too.  All our demons and angels will come out.  But, you'll make it through...as long as you focus on finishing and feeling that feeling when it's complete.  Because I'd rather the pain of work than the pain of no work, and regretting for having underestimated myself.  I cannot live with regret nor can I die with it.....and I will not.

So, even with this post, I'm now writing my last few sentences, I believe.  Believe me, I pulled away from my computer when I got to my danger zone.  Then, I realized Life Imitates Art, Art Imitates Life.  I laughed and got back to work...and here I am...finishing and shit.

Have a muddafuggin THRIVING week, peeps!

with MAAAAD LOVE,

x Alex