"Announcing Hash Talk Show With Alexandra Choi!" Live Shows, Here I Come! Week 46

I'm even mastering 'the selfie' in action.  Skills.

Dear Diary,

Here's my offering to you this week....

*  You may have seen this on my Facebook.  

Yup, I'm getting my own web talk-show.  Whhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaat!!!

This is how official it is.  New business card and my very own desk.  Oh snap!

*  I guest co-hosted again for Tailor Made with Brian Rodda!  I may do it every Mondays.    The show streams LIVE every day @ 10am PST on Youtube.  Here's the latest video.

And our first video has over 20,000 hits already!  

Now on to the main attraction....

Boo yah!

Here's how I got my own web talk-show, in a nutshell.

I was contacted by a friend about a month ago.  She's working with FAME'US Magazine and needed some help making a Kickstarter video.  I met with her, she explained to me what the magazine was all about, I liked very much, so I agreed to do what I can.  I was given freedom to create a video based on the information I was given, so I did.  Shot it, edited it, all in one day and sent it over.  I receive word from the founder/publisher.  We meet and he asks to reshoot the video but, this time, it will be a little more scripted since there are key things he wants to mention....and THEY will shoot and edit it.

You mean, all I have to do is stand there and say lines and I don't have to shoot it or edit it?  

I'm in.

In our next meeting, he brings up my Youtube vlogs.  He was researching my social media presence and came across my youtube channel.  He said I'd make a great talk show host.  He wants to create a FAME'US web talk show and would love to have me be the host.  He said I'm the same person on and off camera (rare), I'm not filtered, I'm a do-er, I'm courageous for putting myself out there, and I have great work ethic.  Oh yeah, and I'm funny.  And that's someone he wants to work with, support, and help.

I'm so grateful and appreciative that somebody believes in me to back me up....and financially at that!!  What the hell?!!  I am so thankful.  I can be so lucky...I'm a Sagittarius.

And as grateful as I am, "Luck is what happens when preparation meets opportunity".  It's also The Law Of Attraction at work.  It's magical but, it was also bound to happen because I was aligning myself to what I wanted.  I'm grateful to my Soul too for not giving up.

I feel like I'm understanding how the world works more and more.  The natural law, the natural way of things.  I see what my part of the equation is and and what God's/The Universe's part is.  In my experience it's a 30/70 ratio.  We don't have much to do but, START.  Before you start the work, it seems daunting and overwhelming, you want to put it off til later, you feel maaaad Resistance....but, once you start, something else carries you and magical things start to happen.  

Why do you think I love the Luck quote and this one so much?  This one is by Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe.  A quote I will live and die by.  Tried and true for me.  

"Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back-- Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth that ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one's favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way. Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now." 

Back to the show,

The show is called, "Hash Talk Show" with Alexandra Choi.  I'm going to be the Hash Tag Girl.  Apparently I love to hash tag.  I do.  I enjoy it very much.  Sometimes I have to stop myself from overdoing it.  Chris, the founder/publisher basically wants me to be just me.  He's not trying to create somebody or a character.....he says who I am naturally is my brand, who I am in all my vlogs, who I am when I'm hash-tagging like a mofo.  He's just piecing those together into a package.  I think in the past this would have freaked me out, "Huh?  I don't know who I am, I don't know what you're talking about" but, not today peeps...not today.  Today I know exactly what he means.  Today I know who I am.  Today I am grateful that somebody sees that.  

We shot our first test episode.  You know how I felt?  FREE.  I was free to do and say anything.  I'm basically doing the same thing I used to do with my vlogs but, this time, I have someone holding the camera and I don't have to worry about post-production.  Although, not having the option to have full control over editing is making me feel uneasy.  Good thing is, I do have say over the final product.  

I learning a lot right now.  Working with professionals.  God, I love working with professionals who get shit done.  It's so emotionally satisfying.  And I see what kind of balance it's going to take for me.  There's the artist in me who is the perfectionist and stubborn but, there's also the producer, the entrepreneur in me who needs to let certain things go for the sake of the project as a whole.  Chris is an amazing mentor.  I know I'm learning from him because my goal isn't to just act and be in front of the camera...my goal is to create an empire.  I WANT TO BUILD AN EMPIRE.  I want to make my own movies.  I want to create live venues for artists.  I want to have my own t-shirt and shoe line.  I want to have my own production company.  There's more.  :D

But like Oprah says, "You can have it all, just not at once."  I'm going to be patient.  I'm going to steadily dream big.  I'm going to continue taking steps.  

I am definitely in the manifesting period.  I'm just curious to see what and how much is possible for me right now.  

And to all the artists out there......IF YOU BUILD IT, THEY WILL COME.  I swear.  Start now.  Start creating your own stuff.  Start putting it out there.  Take advantage of social media.  We live in different times now.  Artists have more power than ever.  

We CAN create the life we want.  One step, one action, one day at a time.

Have a THRIVING week, peeps.

with MAAAAD LOVE,

x Alex

"Ready To Die So I Can LIVE". Live Shows, Here I Come! Week 45

Dear Diary,

Here's my offering to you this week....

*  If we're friends on Facebook, I posted a status update regarding a BIG announcement.  You may have been seeing hints here and there.  I was going to post about it this week but, I'm holding off til next until some things are finalized.  Cool things are in the works but, I want to make it official next week.  Stay tuned!

*  I guest co-hosted a web show this past week!  Yaaay!!  It happened in a matter of two days.  The show is called 'Tailor Made with Brian Rodda'.  It streams LIVE on Youtube daily.  I'll be joining him on Mondays.  How cool!  Click here to watch the video!  It was Brian's first episode and I'm so honored to have been his first guest.  I'm learning a lot right now....by saying YES and getting in there and just doing it.




Now on to the main attraction.....


I'm having death dreams again.

Sounds morbid but, it's not.

Because to die is to live.

Death isn't the end.

It can be the beginning.  It IS the beginning.

My subconscious is communicating to me.

The old me is scared to die.  The old me wants to stay the same.  The old me doesn't want change.

But, change is life.  Movement is life.

Boredom, stagnation is the death of me.

Breaks are good.  Take breaks, get some rest but, when it's time to move....F*CKING MOVE.

There's a lot of moving parts right now.

It causes anxiety in me at times but, it's not stopping me.

I see my fears come up...and it's ok.

Hi fear.  Hi old self.  Thanks for showing up and letting me know that this is important to me.  I'm scared but, I must go.  I can't take you with me.  I'll see you around in another form, in a different lesson.  This lesson, I can let go now.

It makes me cry.  I cry at least once a day these days.  I cry while I'm driving or playing fetch with Bells.  I take deeps breaths and I cry.  Something in me is dying and I'm grieving the loss.

Alex, it's time to move on to the next stage of your life.  This is necessary.  Let that part of you go with Love.  It's all ok.  Grow....GROW.

I'm ALIVE.  I'm living again.  I'm feeling.  I'm thinking.  I'm loving.  I'm hating.  I'm sad.  I'm happy.  I'm angry.  I'm mortified.  I'm making decisions.  I'm taking action.  I'm moving.  I'm changing.

This is the Life of the artist.

This is the Work of the actress.

This is my Path.

Who knows what this death will bring life to?

We shall see.





Have a THRIVING weeks, peeps.


with MAAAD LOVE,

x Alex