Happy Holidays everyone.
You guys are awesome! I am thrilled with the 'Accountability Buddy' submissions and inquiries! I'm getting more excited about it. Yup, we're doing this together folks...because collectively, there's nothing we can't do.
***Reminder***
Submission deadline is Dec 31, 2011 11:59pm
alexandra@alexandrachoi.com
I have a MAGICAL news. I received an email from a very driven and successful independent film writer/director/producer. He asked me if I would be interested in reading for a role in his new feature, scheduled to shoot March or April of 2012. It shoots overseas! Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat???!!!!!!
A friend of mine, let's call him G for now, referred me. Thank you G! Isn't that insane?!
We are still in the auditioning/casting process...he requested for an audition tape, which I worked on yesterday. Now, it's literally letting goooooooo. I did my part, now it's up to God/The Universe.
You know I'm definitely keeping you posted. ;)
Giving help and receiving help...that's what makes the world go round. You are not responsible for just yourself but, for others too. However, you start with you first and miraculously, you'll begin your work with others. You just gotta find your balance. If you can wrap your head and heart around this concept, you're on your way.
I'm naturally a giver, a protector, a server, a pleaser. And I'm sure most of you are too. You're either a parent, a child, a friend, a lover, an artist, etc.... But all these are identities we, better yet, our Ego has created for ourselves, have allowed others to create for us. WAIT! Really think about this. This is something you must understand not only intellectually but, viscerally, with your body, with your heart, with your being.
* In this moment right now, take a deep breath through the nose, let your stomach expand, hold it for a couple of seconds, then exhale through the mouth and feel your stomach walls going in towards your spine. (If you have a hard time taking in deep breaths, try this. Breathe EVERY breath out of you through the mouth FIRST..and be powerful. NOW you have created space in you to take in a good breath. OR, try this. Stand up and drop your top half to the floor..and just hang free and loose, and take a deep breath).
Now, do it two more times, without reading this and just breathe. Hold still when done and think about all the identities you associate yourself with and picture them as little bubbles over YOU. Do you see that they are not YOU? YOU exist by yourself and they are all by-products of YOU. Instead of putting yourself INTO the identities, the identities are beautiful extensions of YOU.
What you have just done was ground yourself. Yep, you did it. You took a moment to experience NOW, and YOU in the NOW. Ground yourself at least once a day and see what happens. Checking in with yourself is the best medicine.
In renewing your relationship with yourself, you will automatically renew all the other relationships in your life. Every person and every thing is a reflection of you and your projection. You don't have to fix your parents, your boss, your boyfriend...you don't have to fix any situation. The only thing you can do is to become aware of your feelings and have more compassion for yourself as to WHY you're feeling this way. And how do you realize the WHY? Ask yourself intelligent questions. Where is this really coming from? Is it really this person? Is it really this situation? I've felt this before...or something like this..is there a pattern? How do I want to feel? How can I be the solution? Compassion for yourself. Be kind to yourself.
Would you like another exercise to help open you up and begin healing where it needs it the most? The child in you, your inner child. The child in you has all the answers you need. But, many of us don't want to go back to it...because something was too painful, too traumatic. But, be the parent you didn't have. Be the friend you want. Be the lover you want. All for the child in you. Give praise to yourself and your inner child. Hug yourself and your inner child. Say "I Love You" to yourself and your inner child. Say "You did a good job" to yourself and your inner child. Say "I'm sorry" to yourself and your inner child. Cry with yourself and your inner child. Dance with yourself and your inner child. Sing to yourself and your inner child. Love yourself and your inner child.
* Begin by breathing again. Take 3 deeps breaths. Now sit quietly and remember and visualize that child in you. My inner child is about 8 years old (age doesn't matter)...little Alex is always wearing fab outfits ;), just let him/her show up just as he/she wants. Just ask for him/her to come and join you for a bit. If you're new to meditating, this may take some time but, keep trying. Think of it this way, that child is scared..hasn't been out in years. It's going to take patience and compassion..don't rush.
Now you see the child. You've made contact. He/she is here. Just be together. Just get to know each other again. Do what you feel in the moment is right. Ask what you feel is right. Answer what you feel is right. Or maybe just listen and observe. Trust that your intuition will guide you. You can't hurt yourself or the child any more. If anything, by making contact again, you're taking action towards healing you and your inner child. This is so courageous and so loving of you.
When you feel it's time to say 'thank you and see you later', do just that. Tell him/her "Thank you little Alex for hanging with me today. You look beautiful today and I love you and I'll see you later." Take 3 more deep breaths and drink some water. Do something to ground yourself back to this reality by using one of your senses...smell something, taste something, touch something...you get the point. :)
Whatever comes up, doesn't come up...let it be. Just BE through and in it.
This is where it all begins. We gotta go backwards sometimes to move forward. We're all adults but we operate from the fearful child in us. When that child's wounds are healed, you will be healed.
So make contact this week. Give yourself and your inner child that gift and OPPORTUNITY to heal. Self-love will make you the best giver you can be. So, don't worry about the world, your family, your friends this week...they will take care of themselves. With any change, there will be resistance and pain...from yourself, your loved ones, and your environment but, notice that as change happening. It's happening! It's not time for you to lose hope, it's actually time to see more hope. Stick to your guns. Stick to your Soul. God/The Universe will perfectly orchestrate the best environment for you to learn and grow.
**And before I let you go, one more thing. :)
In the New Year, as artists, let's take our power back. For our dreams and our souls. You are creators, co-creators. Creating is giving to God and the world. Create and give birth to your dreams this year, in your unique way. You'll be surprised how easily you'll manifest things.
I feel blogging is such a wonderful way to fully express yourself. And you have all the creative control in the world. I just wanted a place to release. Who knew we're usually collectively going through similar things? It also taught me about professionalism, consistency, accountability, discipline, and work ethic. All in all, it just made me happier, healthier, and empowered. Creating your own thing and following through,.... there's no better feeling. This makes you a better artist and professional. Are you curious? Just start blogging.
My recommendation is Wordpress. I'm with Blogger but, if I knew earlier I would have went with Wordpress...it's just more sophisticated. But, if you're not that tech-y, Blogger's pretty easy. Start writing something.
Would you be interested in becoming a guest blogger for me? I know you have something to say. Share what your heart wants to share. You don't know who will read it and be affected by it, changed by it, healed by it. Or better yet, just do it for you. Do it to release what's in you that's craving to get out. I guarantee you'll also feel more like a Pro by setting deadlines, time management, producing your work, then letting it all go when it gets published. Also, it's about giving help and receiving help. Remember, collectively, we can move mountains. I hope I can guest blog for you too. :)
Your blog is your blog. Do what you want with it. Name it what you want. Talk about what you want to talk about. Post pictures you want to post. Share videos you want to share. Let's just do it! :)
Email me to alexandra@alexandrachoi.com if interested.
Have a great week!
with LOVE,
Alex
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