I have been super duper lucky these past weeks.
I have been auditioning everyday. Yep, everyday, at least one or two.
Then, getting callbacks for each one.
:) ting!
I'm not even joking. EV-VERY commercial audition I have been on, I have either gotten a callback, been on avail, or booked it. (Thank you Chris Game for the best commercial workshop ever).
But, I'm feeling a lil blue today. I know why.
I don't like it when it gets quiet.
I just got back from a callback and I feel terrible.
The callback was for Timberland(boot) and Pam, the casting director was the most amazing person to audition for. The first audition, she had me try it 4 or 5 times, giving me feedback each time. Rare. I guess I wasn't quite delivering but, she wanted me to. She kept saying "I like you, I love your look." She was rooting for me...thank you Pam.
Then, today happened and I feel like I let her down. I let me down too but, I let her down. If I heard correctly, before I even slated, she was telling the clients, "This is Alexandra, she's in our Top 4". Uh, now I'm really freakin nervous! I did my thing and a guy with Timberland said "Ok, let's go again but, this time, be a little more upbeat and don't speak until the camera is out of your face."
"Got it." I said.
I went again. I didn't do what I said I'd do. He stopped me pretty quickly and said "Don't speak until you get the camera out of your face." "Yes, of course." I replied. I did it again. This time, I did what was asked but, now I was more nervous than ever so I rushed the whole thing. I felt my hands and arms tense and shaky. My face muscles were doing their own thing. I was a mess. And that was it. My time was up.
I thanked them all and walked out of there with a smile but, I wanted to chuck myself down the stairs.
I don't have more auditions lined up for this week. Nor next week. Maybe that's why I put too much pressure on this one.
When it was auditions galore, I felt very carefree..."eh, on to the next" attitude helped me be me in the room. I was committed to that "flow" and now, it's changing course. But, I get it. Just as I committed to that flow, I have to commit to this one....and whatever that may be. And right now, blogging is what I'm supposed to be doing. Come to think of it, I haven't had time to blog or vlog, and it's been bothering me.
Light bulb. ting! ting! ting! ting! ting!
Hey! I'm blogging!
I'm feeling better and better as we type.
Learning to surrender to the greater plan. And that plan is between me and God. I have been trying to create some quiet space everyday and when I do, I get blessed with A-ha moments. Nice.
Everything and Nothing is in your hands.
<3,
Alex
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Get Uncomfortable!
You gotta keep it moving. You gotta keep on meeting.
Ok, so, you're an actor/actress. Me too.
Are you an actor that attends acting class regularly, auditions sporadically, and not enough "ACTING" in life? Me too.
Do you feel more frustration than excitement? Me too...well, not anymore. Woo hoo!
Here's my theory. Actually, I'm taking it from Dallas Travers (Creative Coach) and Katt Williams (Comic). Surround yourself with professionals, experts, and people that are doing better than you. You are who you associate with.
I believe this 100%.
I've been out here in Los Angeles for 6 years but, it is only within the last 2 that I've been really proactive about this. How have I been proactive? I stopped complaining about not having enough money and signed up for a 6-week creative workshop with Dallas Travers. Boy, was that worth every penny. Dallas taught me the "business" of this business. To make it in Hollywood, it's actually 25% acting and 75% marketing. Absolutely. I didn't believe this when I first moved out here...I thought, "Oh, they're going to hire me for my talent". Ummmmm yeah.......how would they see your talent if they don't even know you exist.
So, here I am. I recently joined ACT NOW, a networking studio for actors where they have awesome casting director workshops. I started yesterday...Chris Game's Commercial workshop....sooooooo good. He's also an amazing human being. I've been on countless commercial auditions, haven't booked....yet. But, with Chris's 4 week workshop under my belt, I'm ready for this beast! AND, the best part of this story is that Chris actually remembered me from an audition! That's it! I don't want to get "discovered"...I want to bust my ass, work hard and be "recognized", "remembered", and "respected". He said the longer you stay in the game, Hollywood gets smaller and smaller. This is so true because within the last 2 years I've been saying "OMG, what a small world!" And especially with Facebook....and mutual friends...this is the best time to be an actress!
Get uncomfortable! Do things that scare you! Try new things! Meet new people! Stay on top of things....do your research. Talk to people that are booking things...what are they doing, how are they doing it? If you don't have a manager or agent(s)...get on it. I have a manager and Commercial agent now and when my reel is ready, my plan is to "shop" around for a Theatrical agent...no more begging here! Trust me, with professionals on your side, YOU will feel more professional.
I've been very blessed so far to have studied, coached, trained, with the best of the best.
You need your chops first and foremost. I owe my creative life to Cameron Thor and Alice Carter...CarterThor Studios. This is where it all started for me. Not only did I learn how to act but, how to live. Love them. Now with their training, I feel very ready to get out there and work work WORK!!!
Then, there's Dallas Travers. She takes away all the scary stuff. She helps you find YOUR own way.....with such positivity and excitement. Sooner or later, you find yourself taking charge of your own career and that's a pretty good feeling.
This month is the Commercial workshop, next month, workshops with television and feature film casting directors. My goal is to book a t.v. show by the end of this year. Hell yeah!!!!!
Oh yeah! I started writing too! Figuring out ways with friends to Taft-Hartley ourselves...for the non-union peeps....you know this is a BIG deal! Cameron Thor always said to throw out there as many things and see what sticks. That's what I'm doing...
Thank you to all my teachers. Thank you to the professionals who believe in me.
Here are some links. Seriously the best. Word of mouth only. By referral only. If you're serious about your career, check them out.
Carter Thor Studios - Acting Studio
http://www.carterthorstudio.com/
Dallas Travers - Creative Coach
http://www.dallastravers.com/
Act Now - Networking and Workshops
http://www.actnownetwork.com/
Ok, so, you're an actor/actress. Me too.
Are you an actor that attends acting class regularly, auditions sporadically, and not enough "ACTING" in life? Me too.
Do you feel more frustration than excitement? Me too...well, not anymore. Woo hoo!
Here's my theory. Actually, I'm taking it from Dallas Travers (Creative Coach) and Katt Williams (Comic). Surround yourself with professionals, experts, and people that are doing better than you. You are who you associate with.
I believe this 100%.
I've been out here in Los Angeles for 6 years but, it is only within the last 2 that I've been really proactive about this. How have I been proactive? I stopped complaining about not having enough money and signed up for a 6-week creative workshop with Dallas Travers. Boy, was that worth every penny. Dallas taught me the "business" of this business. To make it in Hollywood, it's actually 25% acting and 75% marketing. Absolutely. I didn't believe this when I first moved out here...I thought, "Oh, they're going to hire me for my talent". Ummmmm yeah.......how would they see your talent if they don't even know you exist.
So, here I am. I recently joined ACT NOW, a networking studio for actors where they have awesome casting director workshops. I started yesterday...Chris Game's Commercial workshop....sooooooo good. He's also an amazing human being. I've been on countless commercial auditions, haven't booked....yet. But, with Chris's 4 week workshop under my belt, I'm ready for this beast! AND, the best part of this story is that Chris actually remembered me from an audition! That's it! I don't want to get "discovered"...I want to bust my ass, work hard and be "recognized", "remembered", and "respected". He said the longer you stay in the game, Hollywood gets smaller and smaller. This is so true because within the last 2 years I've been saying "OMG, what a small world!" And especially with Facebook....and mutual friends...this is the best time to be an actress!
Get uncomfortable! Do things that scare you! Try new things! Meet new people! Stay on top of things....do your research. Talk to people that are booking things...what are they doing, how are they doing it? If you don't have a manager or agent(s)...get on it. I have a manager and Commercial agent now and when my reel is ready, my plan is to "shop" around for a Theatrical agent...no more begging here! Trust me, with professionals on your side, YOU will feel more professional.
I've been very blessed so far to have studied, coached, trained, with the best of the best.
You need your chops first and foremost. I owe my creative life to Cameron Thor and Alice Carter...CarterThor Studios. This is where it all started for me. Not only did I learn how to act but, how to live. Love them. Now with their training, I feel very ready to get out there and work work WORK!!!
Then, there's Dallas Travers. She takes away all the scary stuff. She helps you find YOUR own way.....with such positivity and excitement. Sooner or later, you find yourself taking charge of your own career and that's a pretty good feeling.
This month is the Commercial workshop, next month, workshops with television and feature film casting directors. My goal is to book a t.v. show by the end of this year. Hell yeah!!!!!
Oh yeah! I started writing too! Figuring out ways with friends to Taft-Hartley ourselves...for the non-union peeps....you know this is a BIG deal! Cameron Thor always said to throw out there as many things and see what sticks. That's what I'm doing...
Thank you to all my teachers. Thank you to the professionals who believe in me.
Here are some links. Seriously the best. Word of mouth only. By referral only. If you're serious about your career, check them out.
Carter Thor Studios - Acting Studio
http://www.carterthorstudio.com/
Dallas Travers - Creative Coach
http://www.dallastravers.com/
Act Now - Networking and Workshops
http://www.actnownetwork.com/
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Law of Attraction at work
How cool....
The day after I decide to make an executive decision about my career...
I no longer have to take every job that comes my way.
I have a goal. And that goal is to build a kick ass reel.
If you can become your thoughts, then I'm going to start living like a movie star NOW.
So this morning I receive a phone call. It is the Production Coordinator getting back to me. We talked for quite a bit. He said he absolutely understood where I was coming from. Nice guy. He asked if he can contact me in the future for some other projects he will be working on. Heck yeah! Wow. That went well. Thank you for this experience.
Then, I get another phone call as I'm getting ready for an audition. A consultant from a "by referral only" casting workshop called. She said someone referred three actors to her and I was one of them. I had no idea what she was talking about. She read out the other two names to me to see if it rang a bell but, no. After some research, turns out an assistant to a casting director I had auditioned for once referred me! Plus, I've heard of this place quite a few times before and I've been wanting to check it out. Seren-freakin-dipitous. So, I'm meeting my consultant tomorrow to do some cold reads to see how I should market myself. My consultant helps me figure out which casting directors would be best for ME. I may not be right for certain casting directors (ex. one CD only casts union. I'm non). This helps me to be more specific. She will also be functioning as a branding consultant. Yesssss!
Off I go happily to my audition. It's for a short...an action-comedy. Totally like Kung Fu Hustle, one of my all time faves. The audition went well. I had fun. I liked the energy in the room. Everyone was so nice. I got to make an adjustment...which is always fun. Then, as I walked out of there, I let it go. Let the audition go and wished for the best person to get it. Got in my car and ran some errands.
Today was the perfect example of The Quote of My Life!!
"The moment one definitely commits oneself then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred...unforeseen incidents, meetings, and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way."
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
Make a decision. Commit to it. Then, just wait and see....Magic.
<3,
Alex
The day after I decide to make an executive decision about my career...
I no longer have to take every job that comes my way.
I have a goal. And that goal is to build a kick ass reel.
If you can become your thoughts, then I'm going to start living like a movie star NOW.
So this morning I receive a phone call. It is the Production Coordinator getting back to me. We talked for quite a bit. He said he absolutely understood where I was coming from. Nice guy. He asked if he can contact me in the future for some other projects he will be working on. Heck yeah! Wow. That went well. Thank you for this experience.
Then, I get another phone call as I'm getting ready for an audition. A consultant from a "by referral only" casting workshop called. She said someone referred three actors to her and I was one of them. I had no idea what she was talking about. She read out the other two names to me to see if it rang a bell but, no. After some research, turns out an assistant to a casting director I had auditioned for once referred me! Plus, I've heard of this place quite a few times before and I've been wanting to check it out. Seren-freakin-dipitous. So, I'm meeting my consultant tomorrow to do some cold reads to see how I should market myself. My consultant helps me figure out which casting directors would be best for ME. I may not be right for certain casting directors (ex. one CD only casts union. I'm non). This helps me to be more specific. She will also be functioning as a branding consultant. Yesssss!
Off I go happily to my audition. It's for a short...an action-comedy. Totally like Kung Fu Hustle, one of my all time faves. The audition went well. I had fun. I liked the energy in the room. Everyone was so nice. I got to make an adjustment...which is always fun. Then, as I walked out of there, I let it go. Let the audition go and wished for the best person to get it. Got in my car and ran some errands.
Today was the perfect example of The Quote of My Life!!
"The moment one definitely commits oneself then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred...unforeseen incidents, meetings, and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way."
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
Make a decision. Commit to it. Then, just wait and see....Magic.
<3,
Alex
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
It's a Psychological Roller Coaster
I just left a message for a Production Coordinator for this short film I'm suppose to be filming this weekend. When he calls me back, I'm going to decline.
They called me a couple of days ago saying I booked a role for their film...unfortunately, it isn't for the role I auditioned for. Instead, it's for a smaller, non-speaking part...."So, you'll be the nurse....she has no lines but, the director LOVED what you brought to the table, it's going to be great...great exposure for you....we'll be cutting to your reaction shots so even though you don't have lines..you'll still be able to express how you're feeling and you will definitely add depth to the scene.......blah blah blah."
Hmmm....
I wanted to tell him to go fuck himself and thank you but, no thank you but, why shoot the messenger.
So, I asked ALOT of questions...because you just never know. And yes, initially, my Ego was hurt. I should be Lead. But, I didn't want to make my decision based on my bruised Ego so I tried to stay open and positive. I asked him for a revised copy of the script so I can see what my character was about. I told myself that no lines is harder than having lines and I can make this work.
I read it last night.
Are you fucking kidding me.
This is my character....as a nurse........................"Nurse Danielle walks out of the room."
That's it.
I had to laugh it off. Great exposure my ass.
Do I sound like a Diva? I hope not.
Because I'm listening to my heart.
Of course the "right" thing to do here is to accept it with gratitude and pay my dues. I'm all for paying dues....however, I'm sick of doing the "right" thing. And, who says taking this is actually the "right" thing to do?
Do you know it took me 5 years to convince myself that I am worthy enough to play Lead or Supporting roles? I only allowed myself Extra roles. 5 years and I am still convincing myself everyday. Everyday I look up roles on LA Casting or Actors Access...and everyday I have to tell myself "You're good enough for this".
Now, I feel I'm good enough...eh, maybe not all the time but, let's say 75%. This switch in my psyche, I earned it. You need this if you're gonna make it.
I lived 26 years of my life with "Who do you think you are?" syndrome. This syndrome had a different name to me then....Humility.
Growing up in a Korean/Christian household, humility was instilled in me from early on. If I got a lil cocky, either someone would call me out on it or I would just negate it by saying...haha, I'm so funny, it was a joke.
But it wasn't a joke. I knew then what I know now. I'm good at what I'm good at.
I don't know if I like this being humble thing anymore. Actually, I don't even think it has anything to do with humility..it's borderline low self-esteem. Oh shit.
Years later, I made the move out here. I brought with me my borderline low self-esteem...which became one of the main ingredients for my resistance. YOU know and feel what you're capable of but, YOU are not ready, YOU only know how to dream and not execute, YOU are not realistic, YOU need to do this for _________, YOU always start a million things and never finish, YOU should move back home, YOU should have a back-up plan, YOU are not trying hard enough, YOU are not a good business person, YOU YOU YOU YOU YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!
This psychological roller coaster is here to stay. I've just learned to manage it somehow.
No one or nothing can scare the shit out of me more than myself. I can be my own worst critic, my own worst enemy, but, I'm also my own bestfriend. And my bestfriend tells me the truth. She's no Pollyanna but, she does take care of all the bullshit and lies I tell myself.
I'm at a point in my career where I know my worth as an actor. I am no longer the actor that only allows herself Extra roles. I have ONE dream. I want to be a movie star. And I hope that by following my ONE dream, it will reveal what my life's purpose is really about.
This is why my dream is so precious. It's my only one and I feel way too connected to it. I will fearlessly protect it. I will fearlessly do what I have to do to keep it alive and going. It's my livelihood.
Yeah, if I listen to the 'humble' Alex, I would take the job and internally punish myself...OR, I can listen to my heart and enjoy the roller coaster ride. :)
From one dreamer to another,
Alex
They called me a couple of days ago saying I booked a role for their film...unfortunately, it isn't for the role I auditioned for. Instead, it's for a smaller, non-speaking part...."So, you'll be the nurse....she has no lines but, the director LOVED what you brought to the table, it's going to be great...great exposure for you....we'll be cutting to your reaction shots so even though you don't have lines..you'll still be able to express how you're feeling and you will definitely add depth to the scene.......blah blah blah."
Hmmm....
I wanted to tell him to go fuck himself and thank you but, no thank you but, why shoot the messenger.
So, I asked ALOT of questions...because you just never know. And yes, initially, my Ego was hurt. I should be Lead. But, I didn't want to make my decision based on my bruised Ego so I tried to stay open and positive. I asked him for a revised copy of the script so I can see what my character was about. I told myself that no lines is harder than having lines and I can make this work.
I read it last night.
Are you fucking kidding me.
This is my character....as a nurse........................"Nurse Danielle walks out of the room."
That's it.
I had to laugh it off. Great exposure my ass.
Do I sound like a Diva? I hope not.
Because I'm listening to my heart.
Of course the "right" thing to do here is to accept it with gratitude and pay my dues. I'm all for paying dues....however, I'm sick of doing the "right" thing. And, who says taking this is actually the "right" thing to do?
Do you know it took me 5 years to convince myself that I am worthy enough to play Lead or Supporting roles? I only allowed myself Extra roles. 5 years and I am still convincing myself everyday. Everyday I look up roles on LA Casting or Actors Access...and everyday I have to tell myself "You're good enough for this".
Now, I feel I'm good enough...eh, maybe not all the time but, let's say 75%. This switch in my psyche, I earned it. You need this if you're gonna make it.
I lived 26 years of my life with "Who do you think you are?" syndrome. This syndrome had a different name to me then....Humility.
Growing up in a Korean/Christian household, humility was instilled in me from early on. If I got a lil cocky, either someone would call me out on it or I would just negate it by saying...haha, I'm so funny, it was a joke.
But it wasn't a joke. I knew then what I know now. I'm good at what I'm good at.
I don't know if I like this being humble thing anymore. Actually, I don't even think it has anything to do with humility..it's borderline low self-esteem. Oh shit.
Years later, I made the move out here. I brought with me my borderline low self-esteem...which became one of the main ingredients for my resistance. YOU know and feel what you're capable of but, YOU are not ready, YOU only know how to dream and not execute, YOU are not realistic, YOU need to do this for _________, YOU always start a million things and never finish, YOU should move back home, YOU should have a back-up plan, YOU are not trying hard enough, YOU are not a good business person, YOU YOU YOU YOU YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!
This psychological roller coaster is here to stay. I've just learned to manage it somehow.
No one or nothing can scare the shit out of me more than myself. I can be my own worst critic, my own worst enemy, but, I'm also my own bestfriend. And my bestfriend tells me the truth. She's no Pollyanna but, she does take care of all the bullshit and lies I tell myself.
I'm at a point in my career where I know my worth as an actor. I am no longer the actor that only allows herself Extra roles. I have ONE dream. I want to be a movie star. And I hope that by following my ONE dream, it will reveal what my life's purpose is really about.
This is why my dream is so precious. It's my only one and I feel way too connected to it. I will fearlessly protect it. I will fearlessly do what I have to do to keep it alive and going. It's my livelihood.
Yeah, if I listen to the 'humble' Alex, I would take the job and internally punish myself...OR, I can listen to my heart and enjoy the roller coaster ride. :)
From one dreamer to another,
Alex
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Girl, where you at?
Listening to: All The Right Moves by OneRepublic
Girl, where you at?
Yaaaaaoooooowwww!
I booked TWO features in 1 week! That's pretty insane...(as I'm dusting off my shoulders). TWO FEATURE FILMS!!! My March and April has been rockin! Actually, this whole year has been a complete blessing. I'm one lucky gal.
So, as you all know the profession of acting is a gamble. It's a "You never know" kind of world. Does this excite me or does it make me feel hopeless? I bet it excites me...and it does. So, I win.
I feel like I've been on a winning streak lately. By all means, I'm not getting paid the big bucks..yet. But, I am a "working" actor and that suffices just fine.
The Good News...
I finally got a manager a couple of months ago! Thank you Maz!
So, my "Manager" said I need to get my sh*t together. I agreed. I went home and made a game plan. I need to build a sick reel so he can get me a sick Theatrical Agent. Okay, first thing's first...I'm getting a new hairdo. I want to brand myself. I want to be the Sassy Asian. Hairdo...check. Okay, now I need new headshots to show off this new hairdo. New headshots...check. Okay, now I just need to start auditioning and book some jobs! So, I started submitting myself every freakin day. I may be addicted to submitting now. I used to have a confidence issue about it...thinking...."What if they think I'm crazy for even submitting?" Who the heck cares? They look, don't like, pass. But, if they do like, then you have yourself an audition. I recently sent in pictures for this PlayBoy TV show..they were looking for a Host (no nudity). Now, mind you, I am as flat as this desk I'm typing on...I never in a million years would have thought that PlayBoy would consider me. Well, they did. I got asked to audition. I declined though for other reasons but, hey, "You Never Know".
So, 3 weeks ago, I literally auditioned everyday! Commercial stuff, theatrical stuff. By Day 3, I was like, "Cool, I feel like a pro. Let's do this." I lucked out with 2 feature film auditions. This came by Day 4 and Day 5 so all the pre-audition jitters were ancient history. I felt very calm-nervous, rather than nervous-nervous, which was a great thing...I felt more in control of my nerves..more present. I went in there...and let loose. I didn't hold anything back. I felt confident giving life to these characters through me...how I would act, react..let choices naturally happen. It started to become fun. If I got to read again, I'd make different bold choices. I felt like a little girl playing. Then, I walked out of the auditions and felt satisfied enough that I did my thing and if I didn't get it, it's simply because I wasn't "right" for the part. That's that. But, it was just way too much fun in there. My sixth sense kicked in and I felt a tingle.
A couple of days later, I got 2 emails requesting for 2 different callbacks. Whaaaaaat. Who gets 2 callbacks in one week?
Cut to: Go to my callbacks and some days later, "Congrats, you've been cast" TWICE. Whaaaaaaat. Who books 2 features in 1 week?! I do.
Had our first meeting for one of the features this week and found out that I'll be walking the red carpet this July for their premiere gala! They'll also be showing a trailer of the feature! Woo hoo! You know, I'm gonna look good.
Then in June, I shoot the other feature! This one's a bad ass horror film..I get ______.
I have 3 auditions lined up for Monday. I think I will submit more...I like the feeling of auditioning consistently...it helps it become more professional and less personal.
If Kathy Griffin is a D-List Celebrity, (and I just googled her name to make sure it's Griffin and not Griffith) according to my StarMeter, I'm probably at around P Q R...maybe L M N O. Well, let's keep climbing.
Girl, where you at?
Yaaaaaoooooowwww!
I booked TWO features in 1 week! That's pretty insane...(as I'm dusting off my shoulders). TWO FEATURE FILMS!!! My March and April has been rockin! Actually, this whole year has been a complete blessing. I'm one lucky gal.
So, as you all know the profession of acting is a gamble. It's a "You never know" kind of world. Does this excite me or does it make me feel hopeless? I bet it excites me...and it does. So, I win.
I feel like I've been on a winning streak lately. By all means, I'm not getting paid the big bucks..yet. But, I am a "working" actor and that suffices just fine.
The Good News...
I finally got a manager a couple of months ago! Thank you Maz!
So, my "Manager" said I need to get my sh*t together. I agreed. I went home and made a game plan. I need to build a sick reel so he can get me a sick Theatrical Agent. Okay, first thing's first...I'm getting a new hairdo. I want to brand myself. I want to be the Sassy Asian. Hairdo...check. Okay, now I need new headshots to show off this new hairdo. New headshots...check. Okay, now I just need to start auditioning and book some jobs! So, I started submitting myself every freakin day. I may be addicted to submitting now. I used to have a confidence issue about it...thinking...."What if they think I'm crazy for even submitting?" Who the heck cares? They look, don't like, pass. But, if they do like, then you have yourself an audition. I recently sent in pictures for this PlayBoy TV show..they were looking for a Host (no nudity). Now, mind you, I am as flat as this desk I'm typing on...I never in a million years would have thought that PlayBoy would consider me. Well, they did. I got asked to audition. I declined though for other reasons but, hey, "You Never Know".
So, 3 weeks ago, I literally auditioned everyday! Commercial stuff, theatrical stuff. By Day 3, I was like, "Cool, I feel like a pro. Let's do this." I lucked out with 2 feature film auditions. This came by Day 4 and Day 5 so all the pre-audition jitters were ancient history. I felt very calm-nervous, rather than nervous-nervous, which was a great thing...I felt more in control of my nerves..more present. I went in there...and let loose. I didn't hold anything back. I felt confident giving life to these characters through me...how I would act, react..let choices naturally happen. It started to become fun. If I got to read again, I'd make different bold choices. I felt like a little girl playing. Then, I walked out of the auditions and felt satisfied enough that I did my thing and if I didn't get it, it's simply because I wasn't "right" for the part. That's that. But, it was just way too much fun in there. My sixth sense kicked in and I felt a tingle.
A couple of days later, I got 2 emails requesting for 2 different callbacks. Whaaaaaat. Who gets 2 callbacks in one week?
Cut to: Go to my callbacks and some days later, "Congrats, you've been cast" TWICE. Whaaaaaaat. Who books 2 features in 1 week?! I do.
Had our first meeting for one of the features this week and found out that I'll be walking the red carpet this July for their premiere gala! They'll also be showing a trailer of the feature! Woo hoo! You know, I'm gonna look good.
Then in June, I shoot the other feature! This one's a bad ass horror film..I get ______.
I have 3 auditions lined up for Monday. I think I will submit more...I like the feeling of auditioning consistently...it helps it become more professional and less personal.
If Kathy Griffin is a D-List Celebrity, (and I just googled her name to make sure it's Griffin and not Griffith) according to my StarMeter, I'm probably at around P Q R...maybe L M N O. Well, let's keep climbing.
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